I typed in “lonely stranger” to find my entry painting and this bunny painting popped up. Seems about right. While I am the true, innocent bunny – staring back there are many in “bunny ears,” pretending to be as innocent and spry.
This is what fame in the Dark feels like. A lot of pretending and wry looks.
I called a lodge in the small Texas town of Marble Falls, where I have some fond memories with friends. In hopes of an escape from this charade and finding solace in a good nature hike. Now, there is no way to prove I am ‘known, yet regarded as unknown,’ as the Bible attests that I am. The only proof I have is the subtle change in her tone once I gave her the name “Crystal Fulbright.” Her Texan warmth and hospitality over the phone all but disappeared.
It is alright by me to pretend I am not known, as it just further instills my faith in the Word. But when not a single, legitimate, Light of Day article has been published about me and I already feel the need to use an alias, something is deeply awry.
‘Do not lean on your own understanding,’ the Book advises, when living a life of faith. ‘In their hearts humans plan their course, but the LORD establishes their steps,’ I am comforted by in Proverbs.
Ok, I will not worry. I just feel the need to point out how ludicrous and fallen we are as a people. When a girl with a voice that heals is persecuted to the point of small-town Texas notoriety. We are fallen.
When a musician who only wants to share Love with her neighbors becomes a targeted enemy of the state. We are fallen. For, ‘Love does no harm to a neighbor. Therefore love is the fulfillment of the law.’
Someone, somewhere once wrote me a song called “Morning Star.” Maybe that’s what I truly am. And God is taking His time introducing me to Day fame so that I might point out all the fruitless, wicked ways of the Night that has encompassed us all.
But who am I to guess at the workings of God? ‘O, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable His judgments, and untraceable His ways!’