Determined Resignation

determinedI believe I may have traversed onto dangerous ground without my even intending to. Seeking Helen Keller’s later, more mature, works proved to be an undertaking. As well-known as she is, not one used or even new bookstore in the cosmopolitan city of Austin, TX carried any of her more spiritual titles. I thank heavens that the works were available online, but they are all from generations past; My Key of Life, Let Us Have Faith, and The Open Door, from 1904, 1946 and 1957 respectively. It seems that these works are not being published now.

And I would ask why, but I already know the answer.

Because she is speaking shining truth. And these are dark, wicked times.

That does not mean that these are hopeless times, dear reader. These are the times that hope and faith flourish most. Just as the lotus flower can only blossom in the swampy mud, so too our faith and inner strengths can only flourish in adversity. “Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved,” said darling Helen.

I believe she is right. As much time as I spend alone, wishing to open my heart and change, I cannot be changed alone. I need to be sharpened by others, ‘As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another.’ So I have what Helen calls “determined resignation” that this will happen.

I am a powerless peasant, a slave, a criminal in these dark times. I must be resigned to my fate. But it will not be the broken-spirit kind of resignation I see all around me. No, the more I am oppressed the more my inner power of love and forbearance will strengthen. I have hope that my servitude will break down my ego and cause the inner light to burst into flames of passion and love. A love that can only be expressed through tears, and second to tears, music.

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