Job was striken with many terrible misfortunes, but he never once cursed God so in the end he was blessed with even more. I hope my life will be a little like Job’s.
I may have been cursed for having a hardened heart, lust for prestige, pride, folly, insanity – but as I continue on my path and maintain righteousness I will only grow stronger and these sins will be forgiven and dimmed. ‘Nevertheless, the righteous will hold to their ways, and those with clean hands will grow stronger.’
‘Who may ascend into the hill of the LORD? And who may stand in His holy place? He who has clean hands and a pure heart, who does not lift up his soul to what is false and does not swear deceitfully. He shall receive a blessing from the LORD And righteousness from the God of his salvation.…’
How do I keep my hands clean?
I do not lie, that is simple enough. Nor do I accept bribes against anyone. Not sure if that is speaking only monetarily or if it could mean to agree to falsely testify against your neighbor. I do not steal. I do not mistreat my body. I am willing and obedient towards all authority. ‘Though your sins are as scarlet, They will be as white as snow; Though they are red like crimson, They will be like wool. If you are willing and obedient, you will eat the good things of the land; “But if you refuse and rebel, You will be devoured by the sword.”‘
I have rebeled in the past, but I do not want to be devoured by the sword! Forgive me.
‘Give to everyone what you owe them: If you owe taxes, pay taxes; if revenue, then revenue; if respect, then respect; if honor, then honor.’ And do not desire the company of the wicked.
Most importantly, I forgive. Everything.
If I am to love my neighbor as myself, I must first forgive my neighbor. It is hard to love anyone without forgiveness. Even family and friends. How much more do I need to forgive my neighbor who might be a stranger to me if I am to be considered worthy of ascension?
So, I forgive you shadows. For your curses, your crude invasion of my privacy, your scheming, your lying , both about me and to my face. I will hope that the Lord avenges me, as the Bible says he will. But in the meantime, I will let go of any malice I have towards you and learn to work on my patience and breaking bones. ‘Through patience a ruler can be persuaded, and a gentle tongue can break a bone.’